PHOENIX AFTER DARK (FLEETING MOMENTS)

FLEETING MOMENTS
Let’s pretend
for one moment
that this is real,
that it’s more than a fleeting moment of lust,
more than me losing myself
and forgetting how fucked up I am.
Let’s pretend
that I won’t feel empty or lonely or self-loathing
when you leave me.
Because you will leave me.
I won’t give you a reason to stay
and you won’t relish the idea
of fighting my demons
and slicing your flesh on my broken pieces.
But let’s pretend
for this night that we’re in love
that you want me more
than anyone else in the world.
I just…I just need to feel something
even if it isn’t forever.
So for this night
until the sun rises and the moment ends
Please—I’m begging you—let’s pretend.